I have realized over the past 6 weeks a lot of things that I take for granted.
1) CHAD! having a husband around is very nice. I must say that after spending just about every day, all day, with him over the summer has made me really miss him that much more!
2) Sense of smell - having a cold for almost 4 weeks stinks! Although not smelling Carson's poopy diapers is nice.
3) Sense of taste - again, cold=no sense of taste. This is good and bad again. I want to taste food. However, I have had a very little appetite which has led to some weight loss, which is great!
4) My own home - It is nice to have a place to stay and company around, but, I just want to have my own place again.
5) My car- Yes, I have a car here that we are buying, but boy do I miss my sweet traverse! I have new car withdrawals.
6) Friends- I miss being able to call my friends and going to hang out with them. This has been VERY hard for me. I don't do a whole lot here because the friends I do have here have their own lives.
7) My LIFE!- I miss my life. I want it back. Now, I know I will not get the life back that I once had, but I want A life. I want to actually sit down and pay bills, or work on a calling in church, or go to a meeting, or have a girls night.
This is the hardest time I have had. I am a very independent person, but I need Chad. I need his help with the children. Now, don't get me wrong, I am not a depressed person. My emotions do run high some days. That is to be expected. And to make time go by easier and perhaps faster, I have decided to take a trip to Cali. Why not, when I am this close right? We are excited and can't wait to see our great friends and the place I miss so much!
5 comments:
So sad for you!! It is so hard to have "Daddy" gone when the kids are little! I don't know how single parents do it. Hang in there though, it'll get better soon. AND at least you get to come to Cali for a visit!!!
You have no idea how excited we are! Well-not Seth yet! He will be though, once he finds out you are coming around his birthday!!! After California then you only have just a short period of time then Chad is back! Can't wait!
I'm so sorry. I can't imagine not having my husband around. No fun being a short term single mom. Makes me wonder how single moms really do it all the time!
Enjoy your Cali trip! If you need a place to stay we have an extra bedroom. :)
I'm sorry to here. Carleton has been working on our yard and I hardly see him. It must be hard not seeing Chad for so long.
You are being a trooper. I would be feeling all the same things you are in your position. Soon enough you will be settled and able to start a new chapter of your life. Enjoy the time with family though because soon enough you will miss them!: )
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