Failure

For those of you who know, I have been "training" to run a 5k that is being held tomorrow. I have wanted to run this for 4 years now, and finally signed up. My running got better, not great. Then over the past couple of weeks I have been experiencing a rather odd pain in my left ankle. It swells when I run and hurts a lot. After about 30 minutes of walking it off, it feels better. It is ODD, I told you. So I thought I would just try for a walk/jog fast pace. THEN, I got tonsillitis, which knocked me out from walking at all on the tredmill because I had such bad chest congestion. Well the Dr. said if that went away, I was ok to do the 5k. So its gone, and I did a practice 5k on the tredmill on Monday. Not thrilled with my time, but I pretty much walked the whole thing. I was excited I could do it and feel fine. My endurance level has really gone up which for me is great!

Yesterday I hurt my back. I don't mean like ouch, I mean OUCH!!! It is very similar to what I did in Yosemite last year. I can't walk standing straight, and it just plain hurts. I thought "this will go away" (with muscle relaxers and 800 IBU) Well, nope its still painful. So I am officially out of the race. I feel like such a failure. I don't want people thinking "She will find any excuse to get out of the race." I tried. I did my practice 5k so I have no doubt that I CAN do it. I am completely bummed. I will find another one to run and do it. I do know though that I am not a runner, and I am ok with that. I just want to say I did it. The End.